Monthly Archives: July 2017

The Love Pillow

(Occasionally I pull out a blog story from my archives.)

Dear Readers,

It is amazing the things we draw comfort from during a trauma.  My breast cancer involved many tests, a failed aspiration from a lump the doctors thought was a cyst, a biopsy, three surgeries, 30+ radiation treatments, and severe complications from the radiation…

THE LOVE PILLOW,  Published on July 7, 2011


Looking back, I remember when the doctors finally decided I had breast cancer, and not a cyst as I was originally told.  When I arrived at U Mass Medical Hospital for my second surgery, my nurse handed me a “Goody Bag!”

“What’s this for?” I asked.

“Just some stuff to help you through this ordeal!” she smiled

Opening that bag took my mind off the cancer for a few short minutes.  Two items in that sack I will never forget; a cloth bound notebook to write a daily journal of my walk with cancer, (I filled every page), and a pillow!

Holding up my little pillow I questioned the nurse again, “What do I do with this?”  I was still naive as to what was ahead.

“That is to put under your sore breast after surgery!” my nurse went on, “Women find it more comfortable with a little soft support afterwards!”

At that point I looked at the tiny 6″x 10″ treasure, and had no idea the comfort I would draw from that gift!  All I knew was that a stranger’s hands made this, just for me!  How thoughtful!

I remember, every night when I rolled over in bed onto my left side, the pain would force me to reach for my precious pillow and tuck it under me.  It always relieved the discomfort so I could go back to sleep!  Often I laid there wondering, ” What sweet person made this out of the kindness of their heart?”  It didn’t matter, because God knew who that kind, caring, soul was!

Years have passed since that 2003 illness.  After a year of cancer related illnesses, I retired early and my hubby and I relocated from Massachusetts to Missouri.  But, I still have that tiny brown-flowered pillow tucked in my bureau drawer, and when I pull it out and hold it close to my heart, I’m reminded of how special someone’s unique ministry is!  And, of the time, care, love, and cost that was put into it.

Fond memories of this gift will stay with me forever.  I wonder if the person who made this has any idea as to how much that care package meant to me!

So, to whomever makes these items for the cancer patients at UMass Medical Hospital, or any other hospital, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Love in Christ,   Claire xoxo

Hebrews 6:10,  “God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.”  (NIV)



I Will Never Forget I Worship a Jew

Dear Readers,

Again while walking my prayer field, the Lord spoke to my heart and reminded me of three different events from my past…

I WILL NEVER FORGET I WORSHIP A JEW,  Journal Entry,  June, 2017

Sometimes I think Christians feel like we are the chosen people!  But God sent us a Jewish Savior, who was raised by a Jewish mother and a Jewish Stepfather!  Three stories came to my mind for this blog, from my past experiences…

About 30 years ago, I attended a “Jews For Jesus” event, with speaker Ira Kellerman.  It was in a massive auditorium in Colorado Springs, Colorado.  I have never experienced the power of the Holy Spirit with such strength, as I did that day!

Many of us skeptics stayed seated when Ira gave an alter call, even though we saw lines of people being slain in the Spirit.  I remember that Ira had a great sense of humor!  Looking out among all of the cynics, (I was one of them) Ira grinned and said, “You don’t believe this is real do you?  Well, let’s see!”  Then he proceeded to wave his arm in a giant circle over the stadium!  What took place next still amazes me, since I, a stiff necked New England native, had no control over any of it!   Almost the entire auditorium, seated and standing people, went down!  I was seated, and still went down!  (Slain in the Spirit as it is called.)  The warmth, comfort, and knowing that I experienced was incredible!

Since attending that event over 30 years ago, the movement of Jews accepting Jesus as their Messiah has skyrocketed!  Which brings me to my second memory…

Last year our Task Force women’s bible study were told by a visiting missionary from Israel that,” Even in Israel many of the Hebrews are secretly inviting Jesus into their hearts and accepting Him as their Messiah!”

I don’t know why God laid this subject on my heart so heavily, but it was so profound that I didn’t want to forget it, which brings me to my third memory…

My third story has never left my mind since childhood!  It occurred when I was about 11 or 12 years old.  My parents owned a small package store business.  Mr. Beegan, who had been their accountant for many years, came to our house one day to prep their books for tax season.

Salesmen were always coming and going in and out of our home as well, and several visited that day.  Standing nearby, I noticed when some of them passed Mr. Beegan working at his desk, they made nasty comments and called him vulgar names used for Jewish people.  He just ignored them and kept on working.  After they all left, my mother (Clara)  went over to his desk and apologized to Mr. B. for their behavior.  I over heard his comment which has stuck in my mind for more than 60 years!  His response when mom apologized was,  “That’s all right Clara!  I know all of you worship a Jew!”

As a preteen, I thought deeply about that comment for many years!  Still do!  It was the first time in my life I realized, I also worship a Jew!

So, here is my first blog for the month of July.  I pray it pleases the Lord, and stirs your imagination as it has mine!  Thank you all for reading my life’s experiences.

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

Acts 2:36,  “Therefore let all the house of Israel know assuredly that God has made this Jesus, whom you crucified, both Lord and Christ.”  (NKJV)