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The Dove

Dear Readers,

I will only have one blog in Nov. and Dec. because of the holidays.

A dear friend who gets to listen to all my stories week after week said to me, “Claire, why don’t you blog a story about your Cancer!”  So, I went home and prayed about it and the words poured out of me…

THE DOVE,  (Archives Blog- December 2, 2010)

After about a month of unusual pain in my left breast, I decided to get a doctor’s opinion.

“No need to worry,” the doctor told me, “I think it’s just another cyst.”  And he set up an appointment to get the lump removed.

Before I knew it I was lying on a surgical table with a long needle being pushed into my body.  As I waited for it to be over, after inserting the needle several times, the surgeon said to me, “Something is wrong Claire!  The cyst won’t aspirate!  I’m going to consult with another doctor.  I will be right back,” and he left me lying there on the operating table.

Fear set in.  Wondering what could be different this time than past cyst removals, I began to imagine the worst.  Soon, the doctor returned and told me, “We are going to take you down and get an ultrasound right now to see what is going on.  It won’t take long.”

They wheeled me into the x-ray room and I watched the screen while they took the pictures.  I was amazed at what I saw!  At that same moment the technician spoke to me, “That looks like a bird!” he said looking at the ultrasound.

“That’s not a bird!” I told him, “That’s a dove!”

“Is that a good thing?” the tech inquired.

“It’s a very good thing!” I told him, “A dove is the symbol of the Holy Spirit!  That tells me everything will be all right!”

Within the next few days I was scheduled for a biopsy and my worst fears came true.  It was a malignant tumor.  Next, I was directed to an oncologist and she told me I would need surgery and then radiation if I was only in stage one, as they suspected.

I went down to the hospital cafeteria.  While drinking a cup of tea, I suddenly broke down in tears.  I was so frightened, but the memory of the dove on the ultrasound machine kept taking my fear away.  I knew that was a sign that the Lord was in control and I had to trust Him.

The next several months were difficult.  Two surgeries and 28 radiation treatments later, I ended up in the hospital emergency room with congestive heart failure.  Fear set in again as I lay in the bed begging God in prayer with the only words I could muster, “Please don’t leave me, please don’t leave me, please don’t leave me!”  After all this treatment, I seemed to be getting worse not better.

I made a huge decision.  I consulted with a different Oncologist.  The first thing my new doctor did was run a bunch of tests.  Bad scar tissue was discovered on my left lung from the radiation treatments.  Several doses of steroids, another surgery from more complications, a couple more emergency trips to the hospital, and I was finally on the road to recovery.

Several months passed and I was pretty much my old self again.  I still had a few breathing problems, but over the years even that has healed up surprisingly well.

I was told that when Cancer hits, expect to put your life on hold for a year.  And, if you are blessed, that year is all you will lose.

I still thank God for the picture of the dove on the ultrasound screen.  I clung to that image the whole time I was going through my illness.  I know it might sound silly to some people, but that picture gave me the comfort I needed to get through a very difficult time in my life.

 

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

Proverbs 3:5+6,  “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”  (NIV)

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