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Abortion-Yes or No?

Dear Readers,

This story, I pulled from my 2012 archives because it coincides with my last blog two weeks ago entitled, “No Such Thing As Coincidence”….

 

ABORTION-  YES OR NO?     Journal Entry,  September 1981

 

What a decision!  Discovering I was pregnant with my third child brought on an emotional trauma.  The timing was totally wrong.  Our two older children were in school all day, our appliance business needed my full-time help, and we already had four people crammed into our little four room house.  Even my baby furniture was long gone.

Completely unprepared for this unwanted pregnancy, I actually considered abortion.  But, being a brand new born-again Christian, I knew my thoughts were shameful.  Somehow diapers, bottles, naps, and midnight feedings just didn’t fit into my inundated schedule.

An early checkup verified that I wasn’t mistaken.  Knowing this pregnancy was amiss, I became a bundle of nerves.  But two incidents happened in one day that I know were sent by the Lord.

First, while phoning for my second appointment with my obstetrician, his receptionist commented nonchalantly, “Do you want to keep it or get rid of it?”

Stunned by her abrasiveness I replied, “Why, does it make a difference?”

“Yes, it does!” she answered casually, “Call us back if you want to get rid of it!  Otherwise, call someone else.”  I couldn’t believe my ears.  My doctor had now gone to doing just abortions.  No more deliveries.

Later that same day, our purebred German Shepherd, who was in heat, broke loose from her dog pen.  Fearing a litter of mongrel pups because she was gone for a couple of hours, I phoned our vet immediately for advice.

“I have an abortion shot and abortion pills,” he cautioned me, “But I don’t recommend them!  They are dangerous for the dog and could make her ill and sterile.  I really do not recommend using them!” he repeated more emphatically.  And again, I couldn’t believe my ears.

In one day, more concern had been shown for my dog than had been shown for my unborn child.  Something was terribly wrong!

That day was the turning point in my pregnancy.  I decided that this baby was the Lord’s will and everything would work itself out.  Even though the timing seemed absolutely wrong to me, the Lord must have decided the time was right.  I asked God to forgive me and I put the abortion idea out of my mind forever.

Everything did work itself out as I’m sure God knew it would.  I stopped working two weeks before my baby was born, and my sister-in-law took over my job.  Most of my baby furniture came back to me.  Within two years we moved into a three bedroom house.

Now, almost five years later, my blonde blue-eyed daughter keeps the whole family young.  She’s extremely bright, has a loud mouth, and fights for her place in our family.  When she puts her little arms around my neck and tells me, “Mommy, I love you soooooooooooo much!” I think back and thank the Lord for helping me to make the right decision.

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

 

Psalms 139:13-16,  ” For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful.  I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.  When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body.  All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”  (NIV)

 

 

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No Such Thing As Coincidence

Dear Readers,

This is a difficult blog to share!  But how will baby Christians grow if us old timers don’t acknowledge our past weaknesses…

Most of you don’t know that over 40 years ago, since now legalized in America, I debated aborting my third child.  This unexpected pregnancy did not fit into our busy schedule of running a brand new business six days a week, having two older children in school all day, and living in a tiny four room house.  But, I had recently become a born-again Christian, and I knew this was not what my Lord and Savior would want me to do.  As that child reached her teens, I told her about this thought.

Now, many years later, my youngest daughter is experiencing the sensation of not being wanted while in my womb.  Watching a film about abortion recently, she became overwhelmed with heartache and sorrow.  She shared this feeling with me, so I wrote this letter to her…

 

NO SUCH THING AS COINCIDENCE-   Journal Entry,  September, 2014

 

My Dearest Baby Daughter,

Remember, there is no such thing as coincidence!  It’s not a coincidence that you saw that movie on abortion!  It’s not a coincidence that the scene you told me you watch over and over, is deeply touching your heart and mind!  It’s not a coincidence that you talked about it with me today.  It’s also not a coincidence that you took some of these special needs children for your internship towards you Master’s Degree in Social Work.  And, it’s not a coincidence that the Lord spoke to me as we talked on the phone this morning!  Got it?

All of it is part of God’s plan for your life!  He put you where you are today;  at your career, back in college to further your degree, living in Massachusetts, and at your new internship.  Most importantly, it’s not a coincidence that God gave me a word of knowledge for you this morning during our conversation.  Nothing happens by accident!  Everything in your life is part of the Lord’s plan for YOU!

I believe what I told you, about feeling loss all the way back to my womb, was also a word from God.  I think what He is trying to do is bring your pain from the shock of discovering my thoughts while I carried you, to the surface.  (It’s just amazing that He seems to be doing it through me!)

Sweetheart, when you finally face your possible moment of rejection, and hopefully forgive me and let go, then and only then, will you ultimately be free to move on.  As part of your curriculum for your Master’s Degree, please take time to watch another film I ran across recently entitled, “October Baby.”  This could be the subject you are supposed to do your thesis on, at the end of your last semester!  Only God knows.

Anyway, my sweet darling youngest daughter, I’m not even sure where all this is coming from.  It must totally be from above.  Think about what I have written.  Please read this again, and save it, and pray about what I feel the Lord has laid on my heart today to tell you.

I love you hon, I really really do!  You are a gift from God that was meant to change my life.

Love, Mommy  xoxo

P.S.  Remember darling, the Lord speaks through movies, stories, music, thoughts, dreams, spiritual gifts, other people, the Word, and much more.

 

Psalms 127:3,  “Sons are a heritage from the Lord, children a reward from him.”   (NIV)

 

P.P.S.   To my readers:  My sweet baby girl is turning 40 years old this year and graduating Phi Alpha  (Honor Society for Social Work) with her Master’s Degree.  I thank God every day that I didn’t abort my precious gift the Lord gave me, and that He has forgiven me for even thinking about it.

Thanks for reading,    Love in Christ,  Claire  xoxo

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