Monthly Archives: October 2015

The Lost Sibling

Dear Readers,

Many of you have lost close loved ones.  This is how it affected me to lose my “Make-Believe Twin” sister…


THE LOST SIBLING,  Journal Entry, Nov. 29, 2004

My sister passed away last September (2004).  We were very close.  Mom raised us like we were twins even though she was a year older than I.  For some strange reason I’m having a problem writing since she died.  I usually have stories pouring out of my head, but they have stopped!  Even when I think about trying to start writing again I hear myself saying, “What for?”  I shrug my shoulders and pace around the house for awhile; something I seem to do a lot of since she passed.

I find myself in tears after talking to God; depressed, searching, and wondering what special mission the Lord has for me.  My late sister had an awesome ministry.  She was the most evangelical Christian I ever knew!  She never hesitated to talk about Jesus, no matter who she was with, or where she was, or what she was doing, or how much pain she was in.

My kid brother also has an obvious end times ministry.  Many times now he has been called to deathbed witnessing, by people who don’t know the Word, or don’t have a personal relationship with Jesus.

Now that I’m retired, I find myself alone most of my daylight hours, and having little contact with people or events.  I continually wonder what God wants from me!  I do pray a lot, and I used to journal daily, but these things don’t seem like a ministry.  I know God has something for all of us to do.  I search for my something constantly, but can’t seem to find it, especially since my big sis passed away.  I wonder if I ever will!

Love in Christ,   Claire xoxo

P.S.  Matt. 11:28, “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”  (NIV)

P.P.S.  Eventually I found peace knowing my sister was with Jesus.  After journaling for over 40 years now, I discovered that my volunteer work at our local hospital, especially praying with my many patients I see, and my Christian blogs that I now write twice a month, all became my little ministry for God.  I hope and pray these two events affect even one person’s life toward salvation through Jesus Christ!


The Holy Visitor

Dear Readers,

     My husband shared a distinct moment with me recently…


     THE HOLY VISITOR   Journal Entry, May, 2015


     C.J. shared something very special today!  I will quote his words…

     "Come sit with me for a few minutes out on the porch, ok hon?  Three or four nights ago, I laid awake and in a lot of pain.  During the night, after finally falling asleep, all of a sudden my head filled with a very bright light.  Then, I saw myself laying on my bed from that position.  All the pain left my body from my head to my toes.  Every single bit of discomfort was gone!  It appeared to last about three or four minutes and was totally peaceful!  My body was absolutely comfortable, without any remnants of pain; extremely rare for me.  I’m always in some kind of pain.  You know that!  I layed there for what seemed like just a few minutes and all of a sudden the light slowly disappeared and got dimmer and dimmer, and then all the pain returned."

     "I didn’t want to tell you about this.  I didn’t want to make a big deal out of it, but it troubled me emotionally as to whether I should say something or not!  I don’t like keeping things from you so I finally decided to share it, after dwelling on it for days!  It’s been bothering me not telling you, but I didn’t want any "Hoop la!"  You know me!  I’m shy about sharing personal stuff!  Do you know what this was?"

     I was so excited for him!  So I told Cal what I believe with all my heart…

     "Sweetie, I believe this was a Holy Spirit experience!  I have been praying for you to receive this.  I believe it was the Baptism of the Holy Spirit talked about in the book of Acts."  We discussed for awhile how precious this gift is and how it seems to remove all doubt from our minds that God and Jesus are real.  Eventually, with a look of wonderment on his face, C.J. went back to his endless repairing of things in the barn.

     All I could think about after he left was what a gracious Lord we have to give this gift to my husband in the month of May.  You see, May is death month for Calvin’s three year old son!  After suffering horribly in great pain, the boy succumbed to Neuroblastoma at the age of, in Cal’s words, "3 years, 3 months, 10 days, 20 hours, and 30 minutes!"  It was especially difficult for Cal this May, as his son Geoff would have turned 40 years old this year.  For my hubby to witness and experience that we will all be pain free and peaceful when in the presence of God, particularly this May, is such perfect timing as only the Lord seems to have!

     I have been talking to the Father for many years asking for Calvin to experience the Baptism of the Holy Spirit so that he could realize, without any doubt, how joyous his son is in the presence of the Lord!  He now knows the totalness and peace of being with God, that seems to accompany this occurrence.  How great is our God to time it during the month of May, just for my husband to treasure forever, and think about on every annivesary.

                       Love in Christ,   Claire xoxo

      Acts 1:4+5, "On one occasion, while he was eating with them, he gave them this command: "Do not leave Jerusalem, but wait for the gift my Father promised, which you have heard me speak about.  For John baptized with water, but in a few days you will be baptized with the Holy Spirit."  (NIV)