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The Total Peace-Dispatcher 3

Dear Readers,

     Several months passed and peace overwhelmed my body about my work like never before.  God was teaching me and preparing me for the future…

 

     THE DISPATCHER-Part 3 (Final) The Total Peace   

 

     A unique anomaly is starting to happen to me.  At first, I didn’t pay much attention.  I just thought it was a mood swing or hormones or something.  But it’s more!  It’s different!  It’s down right pleasurable.

     How do I describe it?  It is a tremendous stress release, unlike any I have ever experienced; unless God is playing a trick on me?  If I could explain it in one phrase it would be, "My inner trembling is gone!"  No, I’ll try harder, "My rapid heartbeat is gone!"  That doesn’t even do it, "Suddenly I have a deep inner peace about my work!"  (Please God, let it last forever!)

     For two years now the stress at work has been unendurable.  I have prayed daily for the Lord to help me, but nothing has changed.  I prayed for a total change in conditions, a change in coworkers, a change in position, a change in location, a new job, a new office, new leadership, anything different, from the deplorable conditions I have now.  Nothing changed.  Discouragement set in, loss of faith rooted, anger built, and my prayers weakened.  But still, I continued to beg and plead my Lord for help.

     Oodles of times I gave up, fearing He didn’t hear my plea.  Christmas season came with all it’s turmoil, parties, and shopping.  November 30th, my son’s wife gave birth to my new granddaughter.  A beautiful blessing!  Also, a surprise hit me in December; The shocking illness and sudden death of my future brother-in-law, whom I dearly loved.

     Physical and emotional exhaustion set in the entire season.  All I wanted to do some days was sleep.  Thank God in heaven, I had a ten-day vacation the third week in December.  I rested, shopped, visited the hospital, and enjoyed my grandkids. 

     That is when a strange transition began to absorb my soul; A feeling of what’s really important in my life started to change in my psyche.  A release if you will, of my work problems rushed over me.  A knowing that God hears me and is in control of my work environment.  Almost like I felt my body take a final deep breath about my career; or maybe a closing of my career?

     I don’t know what caused this.  Maybe it was all the events of the holiday season; maybe the loss of a loved one and the birth of another, but it kind of snuck up on me, so quietly that the last problem at work didn’t even phase me.  I just sort of exploded into laughter at yet another hurdle in my career.  Suddenly, for the first time in over ten years, the stress at work seemed so totally unimportant.  I felt good!  I felt really good!

     I wanted it to last.  I have never been able to go in and do my 10 hours and go home.  I have always gotten too emotional, overreacted to everything, and let my feelings interfere with my decisions.  But, the peace I have now is utterly relaxing.

     My son and my fiance’ have been drilling me for years about, "Letting go and letting God!"  I thought I had.  Many times over the past months I really thought I let go, but still I was plagued with nightmares, shakes, sweating, and frustration.  All these symptoms haunted me constantly reminding me of my tension.  But suddenly after this traumatic December, I feel free.  Incredibly free!  I want it to stay with me until retirement five years from now.

     Talking with my son today, I also realized that I don’t hate my job; I love my job!  I just hate the conditions surrounding my job.  I don’t want to lose this peace.  I don’t want to forget that work is the least important thing going on in my life, and that continued prayer time is a mandatory requirement from the Lord for me to survive.  I also feel for the first time in my life that God is bringing me to a humble place I have never been before.  I mean a place of true humility that I am incapable of reaching on my own.

     Here’s another very important message.  Recently the Lord has shown me a financial way out.  One day I heard, "Quit your job, cash in your pension, and pay off your mortgage."  (Which by the way, is the only debt I have.)  HE WANTS ME DEBT FREE!  That is in agreement with scripture.  Also, He has been urging me to consult with some other Christians about this major decision in my life.

     My son, who is quite intellectual and a powerful man of God, told me, "An amazing paradigm will take place in your life mom, if you succumb to all God is telling you to do!  All of a sudden you will not be answering to the usual worldly demands that most people have to do in order to survive.  Owing no man as the Word says, will free you up totally to do God’s Will in your life.  The most miraculous thing will take place.  Suddenly a different set of rules will apply to your future.  You will be able to take work you would never otherwise consider if you were controlled by income.  And God will open your eyes to what He wants you to do!  The stress release alone mom, will be unbelievable!  Wait until you see!  It will give you peace you never ever experienced!" he reiterated.  My son is wise beyond his years, and he truly tries to follow God’s lead for his life.

     Daily devotionals, prayer, and consultation, are all scriptural commands when making important decisions in life, and I will continue to do all of them so that I won’t make a mistake and go in the wrong direction.  The love of money is the root of all evil, and I never realized until this moment how much it controls me.

 

                                    Love in Christ,  Claire xoxo

 

1Tim.6:10, "For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil.  Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs."  (NIV)

 

     P.S.  Shortly after writing this journal entry I took an early retirement and did what God told me about my pension and paid off my mortgage.  Then I took a job I wanted.  I went into Specialized Foster Care and helped a five-year-old girl heal emotionally after witnessing a horror in her home.  She also invited Jesus into her life during the time I cared for her, which was very rewarding for both of us.  Shortly after my care, she was adopted by a young family in our little town. 

     

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The Dispatcher-Part 3, The Total Peace

Dear Readers,

     Several months passed and peace overwhelmed my body like never before.  God was teaching me and preparing me for the future…

 

     THE DISPATCHER Part 3 (Final) The Total Peace

 

     A unique anomaly is starting to happen to me.  At first, I didn’t pay much attention.  I just thought it was a mood swing or hormones or something.  But it’s more!  It’s different!  It’s down right pleasurable! 

     How do I describe it?  It is a tremendous stress release, unlike any I have ever experienced; unless God is playing a trick on me?  If I could explain it in one phrase it would be, "My inner trembling is gone!"  No, I’ll try harder, "My rapid heartbeat is gone!"  That doesn’t even do it, "Suddenly I have a deep innter peace about my work!"  (Please God, let it last forever!)

     For two years now the stress at work has been unendurable.  I have prayed daily for the Lord to help me, but nothing has changed.  I prayed for a total change in conditions, a change in coworkers, a change in position, a change in location, a new job, a new office, new leadership, anything different from the deplorable conditions I have now.  Nothing changed!  Discouragement set in, loss of faith rooted, anger built, and my prayers weakened.  But still, I continued to beg and plead my Lord for help.  

     Oodles of times I gave up, fearing He didn’t hear my plea.  Christmas season came with all it’s turmoil, parties, and shopping.  November 30th, my son’s wife gave birth to my new granddaughter.  A beautiful blessing!  A surprise hit me in December as well; The shocking illness and sudden death of my future brother-in-law, whom I loved dearly.

     Physical and emotional exhaustion set in the entire season.  All I wanted to do some days was sleep.  Thank God in heaven, I had a ten-day vacation the third week in December.  I rested, shopped, visited the hospital, and

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The Wake Up Call-Dispatcher 2

Dear Readers,

     As work got progressively more violent at my company, I finally started to realize how desperately I needed to depend on the Lord…

 

     THE WAKE UP CALL- DISPATCHER part 2       Journal Entry March 29, 2002

 

     I think I have finally figured out what God is trying to teach me.  Yesterday I was really hurt by a comment that was made to me by my manager, "If I had my way I would get rid of everyone in this department, all of you!" he shouted.

     When he said that, I realized they don’t care about me even though I have been working hard to help prepare the bosses for what lies ahead.  In other words, the union believes I’m a snitch, but actually I’m just answering management’s questions honestly.  Naivete’ plagues me.  The union didn’t accept me because they only cater to a select few.

     Then I turned to management and their attitude is, "Fire all of them!"  Finally the whole picture came clear to me last night on my way home from work.  The Lord suddenly showed me, it’s Him and only Him I should be catering to.  People will let me down; it’s scriptural!  And, the lesson the Lord is teaching me suddenly came clear as well.

     One other time in my life He brought me to this level of humility.  It was the year I had to go on welfare and so many people looked down on me, turned their heads, and whispered behind my back.  People who I thought cared.  People I had helped and supported in the past, backed away when I needed them the most.

     Is God bringing me back to that humble place?  Yes, I’m convinced now that He is!  But for what reason?  Because I started getting proud again?  Have I been feeling like I accomplished a lot by getting a house, having a high paying job, patting myself on the back for accomplishing so much in a short amount of time?

     Have I forgotten so quickly who got the job for me?  Have I forgotten so quickly who miraculously helped me purchase my mother’s house?  Have I forgotten so quickly who told me in a message when I walked into the lobby of my company and I looked up to the dispatch office, "THAT JOB WILL BY YOURS!"  And it was mine; only 2 years and 10 months after I started working there, I got the dispatcher position, which by the way doubled my paycheck.  Yes, I guess I have!

     I started feeling pretty good about myself, and there it all is!  God wants me back!  Humbled, to Him!  Giving credit to Him!  Because He knows; I’m nothing and I’m no one without His lead!

     When I was on welfare years ago, I made a conscious decision that I would never again look down on anyone, no matter what their circumstances; no matter what their handicaps, their color, their cleanliness, their condition!  I would respect all people!  But, the feeling of pride has again crept into my heart.

     Yes, I finally got the message last night on my way home.  He wants me humbled.  He wants me depending on Him, not on management, not on the union, not even on Calvin my fiance’.  Just on Jesus!  Only Jesus!  After two years of constant prayer, I finally grasped that God is not going to make a miraculous change in my company; He’s going to make a miraculous change in me!

 

                                Love in Christ,  Claire xoxo

P.S.  My next blog will be, "The Dispatcher-Part 3, The Total Peace."  Scroll down this page for "The Dispatcher" part 1.

1Cor. 1:25, "For the foolishness of God is wiser than man’s wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man’s strength."  (NIV) 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Wake Up Call-Dispatcher 2

Dear Readers,

     As work got progressively more violent at my company, I finally started to realize how desperately I needed to depend on the Lord…

 

     THE WAKE UP CALL- DISPATCHER part 2       Journal Entry March 29, 2002

 

     I think I have finally figured out what God is trying to teach me.  Yesterday I was really hurt by a comment that was made to me by my manager, "If I had my way I would get rid of everyone in this department, all of you!" he shouted.

     When he said that, I realized they don’t care about me even though I have been working hard to help prepare the bosses for what lies ahead.  In other words, the union believes I’m a snitch, but actually I’m just answering management’s questions honestly.  Naivete’ plagues me.  The union didn’t accept me because they only cater to a select few.

     Then I turned to management and their attitude is, "Fire all of them!"  Finally the whole picture came clear to me last night on my way home from work.  The Lord suddenly showed me, it’s Him and only Him I should be catering to.  People will let me down; it’s scriptural!  And, the lesson the Lord is teaching me suddenly came clear as well.

     One other time in my life He brought me to this level of humility.  It was the year I had to go on welfare and so many people looked down on me, turned their heads, and whispered behind my back.  People who I thought cared.  People I had helped and supported in the past, backed away when I needed them the most.

     Is God bringing me back to that humble place?  Yes, I’m convinced now that He is!  But for what reason?  Because I started getting proud again?  Have I been feeling like I accomplished a lot by getting a house, having a high paying job, patting myself on the back for accomplishing so much in a short amout of time?

     Have I forgotten so quickly who got the job for me?  Have I forgotten so quickly who miraculously helped me purchase my mother’s house?  Have I forgotten so quickly who told me in a message when I walked into the lobby of my company and I looked up to the dispatch office, "THAT JOB WILL BY YOURS!"  And it was mine; only 2 years and 10 months after I started working there, I got the dispatcher position, which by the way doubled my paycheck.  Yes, I guess I have!

     I started feeling pretty good about myself, and there it all is!  God wants me back!  Humbled, to Him!  Giving credit to Him!  Because He knows; I’m nothing and I’m no one without His lead!

     When I was on welfare years ago, I made a conscious decision that I would never again look down on anyone, no matter what their circumstances; no matter what their handicaps, their color, their cleanliness, their condition!  I would respect all people!  But, the feeling of pride has again crept into my heart.

     Yes, I finally got the message last night on my way home.  He wants me humbled.  He wants me depending on Him, not on management, not on the union, not even on Calvin my fiance’.  Just on Jesus!  Only Jesus!  After two years of constant prayer, I finally grasped that God is not going to make a miraculous change in my company; He’s going to make a miraculous change in me!

 

                                Love in Christ,  Claire xoxo

P.S.  My next blog will be, "The Dispatcher-Part 3, The Total Peace."

1Cor. 1:25, "For the foolishness of God is wiser than man’s wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man’s strength."  (NIV) 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Wake Up Call-Dispatcher 2

Dear Readers,

     As work got progressively more violent at my company, I finally started to realize how desperately I needed to depend on the Lord…

 

     THE WAKE UP CALL- DISPATCHER part 2       Journal Entry March 29, 2002

 

     I think I have finally figured out what God is trying to teach me.  Yesterday I was really hurt by a comment that was made to me by my manager, "If I had my way I would get rid of everyone in this department, all of you!" he shouted.

     When he said that, I realized they don’t care about me even though I have been working hard to help prepare the bosses for what lies ahead.  In other words, the union believes I’m a snitch, but actually I’m just answering management’s questions honestly.  Naivete’ plagues me.  The union didn’t accept me because they only cater to a select few.

     Then I turned to management and their attitude is, "Fire all of them!"  Finally the whole picture came clear to me last night on my way home from work.  The Lord suddenly showed me, it’s Him and only Him I should be catering to.  People will let me down; it’s scriptural!  And, the lesson the Lord is teaching me suddenly came clear as well.

     One other time in my life He brought me to this level of humility.  It was the year I had to go on welfare and so many people looked down on me, turned their heads, and whispered behind my back.  People who I thought cared.  People I had helped and supported in the past, backed away when I needed them the most.

     Is God bringing me back to that humble place?  Yes, I’m convinced now that He is!  But for what reason?  Because I started getting proud again?  Have I been feeling like I accomplished a lot by getting a house, having a high paying job, patting myself on the back for accomplishing so much in a short amout of time?

     Have I forgotten so quickly who got the job for me?  Have I forgotten so quickly who miraculously helped me purchase my mother’s house?  Have I forgotten so quickly who told me in a message when I walked into the lobby of my company and I looked up to the dispatch office, "THAT JOB WILL BY YOURS!"  And it was mine; only 2 years and 10 months after I started working there, I got the dispatcher position, which by the way doubled my paycheck.  Yes, I guess I have!

     I started feeling pretty good about myself, and there it all is!  God wants me back!  Humbled, to Him!  Giving credit to Him!  Because He knows; I’m nothing and I’m no one without His lead!

     When I was on welfare years ago, I made a conscious decision that I would never again look down on anyone, no matter what their circumstances; no matter what their handicaps, their color, their cleanliness, their condition!  I would respect all people!  But, the feeling of pride has again crept into my heart.

     Yes, I finally got the message last night on my way home.  He wants me humbled.  He wants me depending on Him, not on management, not on the union, not even on Calvin my fiance’.  Just on Jesus!  Only Jesus!  After two years of constant prayer, I finally grasped that God is not going to make a miraculous change in my company; He’s going to make a miraculous change in me!

 

                                Love in Christ,  Claire xoxo

P.S.  My next blog will be, "The Dispatcher-Part 3, The Total Peace."

1Cor. 1:25, "For the foolishness of God is wiser than man’s wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man’s strength."  (NIV) 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Wake Up Call-Dispatcher 2

Dear Readers,

     As work got progressively more violent at my company, I finally started to realize how desperately I needed to depend on the Lord…

 

     THE WAKE UP CALL- DISPATCHER part 2       Journal Entry March 29, 2002

 

     I think I have finally figured out what God is trying to teach me.  Yesterday I was really hurt by a comment that was made to me by my manager, "If I had my way I would get rid of everyone in this department, all of you!" he shouted.

     When he said that, I realized they don’t care about me even though I have been working hard to help prepare the bosses for what lies ahead.  In other words, the union believes I’m a snitch, but actually I’m just answering management’s questions honestly.  Naivete’ plagues me.  The union didn’t accept me because they only cater to a select few.

     Then I turned to management and their attitude is, "Fire all of them!"  Finally the whole picture came clear to me last night on my way home from work.  The Lord suddenly showed me, it’s Him and only Him I should be catering to.  People will let me down; it’s scriptural!  And, the lesson the Lord is teaching me suddenly came clear as well.

     One other time in my life He brought me to this level of humility.  It was the year I had to go on welfare and so many people looked down on me, turned their heads, and whispered behind my back.  People who I thought cared.  People I had helped and supported in the past, backed away when I needed them the most.

     Is God bringing me back to that humble place?  Yes, I’m convinced now that He is!  But for what reason?  Because I started getting proud again?  Have I been feeling like I accomplished a lot by getting a house, having a high paying job, patting myself on the back for accomplishing so much in a short amout of time?

     Have I forgotten so quickly who got the job for me?  Have I forgotten so quickly who miraculously helped me purchase my mother’s house?  Have I forgotten so quickly who told me in a message when I walked into the lobby of my company and I looked up to the dispatch office, "THAT JOB WILL BY YOURS!"  And it was mine; only 2 years and 10 months after I started working there, I got the dispatcher position, which by the way doubled my paycheck.  Yes, I guess I have!

     I started feeling pretty good about myself, and there it all is!  God wants me back!  Humbled, to Him!  Giving credit to Him!  Because He knows; I’m nothing and I’m no one without His lead!

     When I was on welfare years ago, I made a conscious decision that I would never again look down on anyone, no matter what their circumstances; no matter what their handicaps, their color, their cleanliness, their condition!  I would respect all people!  But, the feeling of pride has again crept into my heart.

     Yes, I finally got the message last night on my way home.  He wants me humbled.  He wants me depending on Him, not on management, not on the union, not even on Calvin my fiance’.  Just on Jesus!  Only Jesus!  After two years of constant prayer, I finally grasped that God is not going to make a miraculous change in my company; He’s going to make a miraculous change in me!

 

                                Love in Christ,  Claire xoxo

P.S.  My next blog will be, "The Dispatcher-Part 3, The Total Peace."

1Cor. 1:25, "For the foolishness of God is wiser than man’s wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man’s strength."  (NIV) 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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