The Career- Part Two

Dear Readers,

     I hope you enjoy part two of "The Career."  Scroll down the page for part one.  Thanks for reading…


     The Career- part two    Journal Entry May 5, 1986


     This time, I got angry.  After eight weeks of working at these two purchases, spending five or six hours a day on them, I blew up at my hubby and chose to ignore his warning from the Holy Spirit, as well.  I had pushed aside my own strong warning a couple weeks earlier.  My husband chose not to ignore it, but since I was determined to continue, he signed power of attorney over to me.  The feeling of success, and now greed had taken it’s toll.  I pushed towards closing and continued to pray for guidance, still convinced that the Lord had sent both these houses to me, especially the one on the east side in Ellicott, close to the planned location of the new space center.  Both houses looked investment safe and encouraging.  Closing dates were set and both lenders assured me all was going well. 

     Then, several days before the scheduled closings, I filled up with uncontrollable fear again.  I thought to myself, "What if these houses are wrong?  What if the Lord really doesn’t approve of some of the subtle little deceitful things I have had to do in order to finance them?  He won’t bless them as rentals if lies and deceit are a part of the purchase, like my hubby kept insisting!"  The devil had convinced me my husband was jealous of my new found success, and not that the Lord was warning me.  The fear persisted and wouldn’t go away.

     A couple days before closing time, when I could no longer take the fear, once again I turned to God for help.  Reluctantly, with all my pride and intellect fighting not to reach out to Him, I got on my knees and turned to Jesus in total release, "Lord, if these houses are wrong in any way and don’t glorify You, I beg You to stop them now, before I get into something that is not from You and won’t have Your blessing.  Even though every part of me cries out not to, I’m begging You to somehow stop them if they are wrong for me, or I am wrong in how I am going about this.  In Jesus’s name I pray, amen!" 

     AND HE DID!  The next day, within minutes of each other, the calls came in.  Hours before the closing on the Ellicott house, I got a call that the lender turned it down, not even for a good reason.  "A mistake was made in Denver.  They turned your loan down!  We’re going to resubmit it with your approval.  I know it will pass this time!  It was an error by some college kid," the broker went on and on and on.  I hung up stunned. 

     Minutes later, a call on the second house, "The underwriters have refused your loan.  We’ll be sending you a letter of explanation!" was all I was told on the second call.

     The excuses were irrelevant.  Both houses had been stopped cold for no apparent reason, and I knew in my heart that no matter what else I tried, they would not go through!  It was over!

     I collapsed on my livingroom floor in shock.  I couldn’t believe it.  Both purchases were failing, within minutes of each other, after working so hard, for so long.  The phone rang again as I lay there in disbelief.

     It was my husband making his usual daily call.  He wasn’t the least bit surprised when I told him about the calls.  He had given the houses totally to God since he received his own warning.  He hurt for me, but he also said he knew it was coming.

     Sometimes, more often than I want to admit, I am pig-headed and proud.  I didn’t give up there.  I continued to fight until the end of the month when both my contracts expired.  It still hurts deeply to think about it.  Satan got a grip on my mind and convinced me that, "I’m intelligent and successful!"  He also convinced me that God did not want me to succeed.  Humility had disappeared, and vanity had taken over.

     When it finally became obvious that maybe, just maybe, real estate investing was not my forte, and my savings started running out, and also in the same month my mate’s overtime got cut, I decided it was time to look for another career.  Feeling totally humbled, I again turned to God in prayer, "Please forgive me and help me find another job Lord!  I need to do my share.  I’ve always worked and brought in some income, but I don’t know what to do.  I can’t go back to daycare, and I have been out of the work world for so long that I’m not sure what I am qualified to do Father!  Please, please help me find a job, in Jesus’s name I pray, amen."


                        Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo


P.S.  A little update.  I did find a job soon after, in retail sales.  Not a glamorous career, but a start.  Also, CSOC was never built.  The space program was cut by the next administration.  That means the house on the east side in Ellicott, would have immediately dropped in value.

     Within a year or so after this venture, there was a huge lay off at TRW in Colorado Springs where my husband worked, and our family had to relocate back to New England where he secured a new position with AT&T, and where real estate sales were booming.  I went to school and got my sales and broker licenses, and for the next five years, until the market collapsed in the early 1990’s, I successfully sold houses for Century 21.  (This next part I mention humbly.)  Thanks to the Lord, I even got in the top sales club ($1,000,000 Club) when I closed on just over a million dollars in sales in one year at Century 21.

     Only the Lord knows what is ahead in our lives.  We do not!  God is good all the time!


Proverbs 11:2, "When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom."  (NIV)

Proverbs 11:2, "When pride comes, then comes shame; But with the humble is wisdom."  (NKJV)

Proverbs 3:5+6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."  (NIV) 


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