“That’s Why That Happened!”

Dear Readers,

Have you ever found yourself saying those words?  Many times in our lifetime we question unexpected events.  Then months or even years later we will experience the answer…


For over 43 years of questioning everything the Lord tells me or throws at me, I finally realized, “How else is He supposed to show me the path HE has for me!”

Only after lots of tears, much time, and even shouting at Him in prayers of discouragement, did I start to realize, “That’s why that happened!”

Often in our prayers we question every change in our life as to why God allowed something to happen, or put us in a time, place, or position that we had no desire to go in, and we wonder, “Why Lord, why is this happening?  Why Lord am I sick or why Lord did I lose my home, my job, my mate, my whatever!  Then days or months or even years later it will occur to us, “THAT’S WHY!”  Suddenly we realize our precious all knowing God, allowed us to go in this direction.  It was His plan, that’s why!

If God is in control of everything in life, Him and only Him can guide us to where HE wants us to be!

I personally gave him control immediately after getting saved over forty years ago.  Never did I ever believe He would make so many changes in my life!  Here’s an example…

One day as I drove into my yard in my school bus, I clearly heard these words in my head,  “Go over and talk to Richie and ask him if they are hiring any full-time drivers at the city bus company!”  My neighbor was sitting out on his front porch and had been employed at the company for over 30 years.  At the time, I was a part-time school bus driver and my husband had been out of work for over a year.  It was during the recession of the early 90’s and I wanted no part of driving a city bus!  But still, I crossed the street and spoke to Richard asking if they were doing any hiring at the WRTA!  He said, “Yes, two positions have just opened up!  They haven’t hired anyone in two years!  If you run down now, I will call in a reference immediately for you!”

Having such an excellent reference from a 30 year veteran, the company interviewed me immediately and hired me the next day!

I drove that city bus for only a few years until a dispatcher/inspector position came open.  When the bid came up to refill it, I won the bid becoming the first full-time woman in that department of six inspector/dispatchers!  I received the largest pay hike in the shortest employment time in the history of the bus company, starting in that position at over $26 an hour.  A lot of money in the 1990’s!  The realization of “THAT’S WHY THAT HAPPENED!” came to me years later.  It finally dawned on me, God was providing our family enough income to survive.

Eleven years passed and I discovered I had breast cancer, which meant two surgeries and radiation treatment.  This time again I wondered,  “Why Lord?  Why is this happening now?”  It finally dawned on me half way through my treatments, that God was allowing this to happen so I could take an early retirement at 60 years old, and also be able to collect disability and my pension as well.  HE WAS STILL TAKING CARE OF EVERYTHING!

In summation, here are a few more miracles He has done over the years that I wouldn’t have believed, or always wondered “Why Lord,”

  1. Gave me a third child, (pregnancy was difficult for me.)
  2. Gave us a larger home to fit our family.
  3. Relocated me and my family to Missouri for retirement, and so much more.

God is good all the time!  Listen to Him when He speaks to you, even if what you hear sounds crazy in your mind!  We never know what the Lord has in store for us.  The “THAT’S WHY” answer always becomes obvious much later than the event!

We tend to be strong willed people here in the U.S.A.!  Giving up control is not in our nature!  So, God takes it from us when He needs to, just to get our attention and get us back on His track for our lives.  Oh yes, we continue to question Him and ask, “Why Lord?”  But the “That’s Why” answer only comes to us on His time, not our time.

I suspect it will always be that way!

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

Proverbs 3:5+6,  “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding: in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”   (NIV)



Dear Readers,

This is a controversial subject but so many people are now divorced and lonely that I thought I would share a recent experience with two sweet ladies…


Many divorced people who have lost a mate are very lonely.  No one wants to be alone, not really.  Should we stop looking for our soulmates?  Obviously our first partner wasn’t the one!

Recently I have observed two middle aged women who have drawn really close to the Lord after their breakups.  Both have given total control over this issue back to God.  Both are going back to their roots and trusting totally in Jesus to bring them an evenly yoked soulmate, something that didn’t come with their first husbands.

Some people don’t believe in second marriages.  But scripture also says that unevenly yoked couples are also questionable.  Most importantly, Jesus is all forgiving.

The wonderful part about observing these women is the new growth of their Christian walks!  It is amazing to see them become totally dependent on the Lord, after years of falling away from Him, which sometimes happens in marriages where one partner is a believer and the other is not.

Once we get over grieving and look in the mirror and pray, “OK Lord, is today the day you are going to introduce me to my soulmate?  I’m waiting and trusting in You and You alone to bring him to me!”

I myself even wrote Him a letter and listed all the qualities I wanted in a soulmate, and then held my letter in my hands during my evening prayers every night.  I’m not sure that was a good idea as God might not want the qualities I wanted.  I know I am not an easy person to live with, so this man had to be really special to tolerate my personality.  That was 24 years ago and today he is still my perfect soulmate!  I have rambled on and on enough this blog, but not a day goes by that I don’t thank God for bringing my sweetheart to me!

So, if you are lonely, talk to Jesus about this often in your prayers.  You will be absolutely amazed at what happens to the rest of your life!

Love in Christ,  Claire xoxo

Ecclesiastes. 3-1,  “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.”

P.S.  The ladies are starting a singles group for middle aged men and women at their church!!!




Dear Readers,

This story happened a year or so after I became a born-again Christian.  We live in a fast paced world with instant everything.  I am here to tell you from experience that, when it is His will, we also have an instant God…


It was July 4, 1976, the bicentennial celebration of the Declaration of Independence.  I was six months pregnant with my third child.  I had only been a born-again Christian for a short time, and was still discovering how powerfully and instantly God can answer prayers.  My family of 4 and a half were going to see the evening fireworks in our little home town in Massachusetts.  Arriving at the little league ball field, we exited our vehicle and all held hands and prayed, “Please Lord, watch over us and protect us from harm tonight, in Jesus’s name we pray amen.”

We made our way through hundreds of people, all the way to the front of the crowd, as close as we could get!  Spreading our blanket out and setting up our folding chairs, I plunked my very pregnant body down to relax.  Packed in like sardines with chairs and blankets up against each other, there wasn’t even room to walk around.  The fireworks display began and our front row seats were spectacular!

Suddenly, out of nowhere, I got a terrible chill up my spine, attached to a loud and clear message in my head, “YOU HAVE TO MOVE NOW!”  It was so profound that in a split second I stood up, grabbed my chair, shouted to my family that we had to move, and literally ran my chubby body all the way to the back of the ball field!  Shocked, my brood quickly grabbed the blanket and their chairs and followed me!  What else were they going to do!  I was with child so no one would argue with me, right?  Very quickly other families filled in our great spot up front!  Instantly we set up our chairs again to watch and enjoy the rest of the display from as far back in the ball field as I could seat us.  Then the horror began!

The very next firework that went off misfired!  Instead of going straight up into the sky, it went directly into the crowd and landed almost exactly in the spot up front where we were previously sitting!  Stunned, my entire family watched as panic ensued!  Everyone scattered, trampling over many others in their path!  A toddler was ablaze with his clothes flaming!  A woman was screaming and running through the crowd with her hair ignited!  She kept trying to put out the flames with her hands, but couldn’t!

As more and more blankets exploded into flames, many others were injured and burned.  That “BIG BOOM” we usually hear at the end of a firework, blew up like a small bomb on the ground among the crowd.  People were grabbing little children and throwing quilts over them to put out the flames.

Our family watched in shock from the very back of the field, as all this horror took place.  Quickly the firetrucks and ambulances on the scene, rushed in to help and took the injured away.  The screaming and panic slowly subsided, the display was cancelled, and the people dispersed, all while my family stood frozen in fear.

After catching our breath, we finally left and arrived home.  As we silently walked in the front door, all of us burst into tears.  Gathering our emotions, we all held hands in our livingroom and thanked the Lord for watching over us that terrible night.  If not for the grace of God, one or more of us could have been in those ambulances.  I could have been trampled or lost my baby, or my other children could have been maimed for life!  We were numb for days.

Sometimes bad things happen to us and sometimes they don’t.  But God is always there to help us through, especially if we ask Him!  He has gotten me through some incredible times.  Learn to listen for His Voice!  Learn to look for signs!  Most importantly, learn His Word!

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

Isa. 30:21,  “Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you saying,  “This is the way, walk in it.”  (NIV)


Pete’s Dragon

Dear Readers,

May, 2019 was the 41st anniversary of my stepson’s passing.  He was born in February 1975, diagnosed with a Neuroblastoma in his stomach in November 1977, and  passed away in May 1978, at the tender age of three years and three months.  This blog is written in his memory…


Forty-one years ago my husband lost a son to cancer.  I don’t know how anyone can get over losing a child.  C.J. has only shared bits and pieces of his experience.  One day he softly shared this one, “”Three years, three months, ten days, twenty hours, and 30 minutes!  That’s how long I had him!  He looked like he was staring up at angels when he died!  He pointed up at the ceiling just before passing and his eyes opened big and wide!  He was so weak he could not speak, but I think he saw angels coming for him!  I held him until he died.  The doctors told me the medication would either kill him or cure him!  I can still smell my son in his little shoes that I kept!”  He went on to say, “I took him to as many special events as he had the strength for, especially movies!  His favorite was Pete’s Dragon!”

Sometimes we let precious moments slip by and miss the real beauty that God intended for us to experience.  But, if we stop and think about our own past, I know all of us can find a moment in time like this next one I am going to share!  My daughter was weeding out a bunch of old movie cassettes and called me to ask if I would like to have any of them before she donated them or threw them away.  Wouldn’t you know, one of those movies was “Pete’s Dragon!”

“Your kidding right?” I shouted on the phone.  “That movie means so much to Calvin!  Would you consider giving it to him for Father’s Day?  He would absolutely treasure it!”  So she wrapped it up and gave it to him and of course he was elated and teary-eyed!  That night, C.J. crawled into bed and fell asleep watching that movie remembering every reaction his son experienced at each part of the priceless old film.  He reminisced about the scary parts, the funny parts, and the music, all while he was at the theater with his little Geoff sitting on his lap!

The next morning, he shared the best part of the memory with me, “You know, while I watched that movie last night, it was the first time since he went to heaven that I actually felt like my son was still sitting on my lap!  It’s been a very long time since I have had that feeling!”  (sniff)

My heart ached for him as he shared that memory of his tiny angel’s three year life.  Only a parent who has lost a child can understand that kind of emptiness.

“Thank you Lord for that split second of beauty between my hubby and I!  My daughter has no idea how much that gift meant to him and to me.”

Love in Christ,   Claire   xoxo

1 Thess. 5:18,   “Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”  (NIV)












Sweet Little Janice Lynn

Dear Readers,

This is a re-blog from 2012 about my Godchild, and since both of her parents have gone to be with the Lord I can now share this story …

SWEET LITTLE JANICE LYNN,    Re-blog from  January, 2012

Years ago my seven year old Godchild Janice Lynn, went to be with the Lord.  She was born with poor health and for years was wrongly diagnosed.  Her mother, my big sister Jeanne, spent all her time trying to get help for her to find a cure for what ailed her.  The doctors told her it was seizures, convulsions, and many other illnesses.  But, shortly before her death the diagnosis was changed and the medical conclusion was “Primary Pulmonary Hypertension,” which was causing her to have frequent mini heart attacks!  This illness was very rare.

Before my big sis passed away she shared with me a miracle that occurred two weeks before her daughter’s death…

One day a shout came from her daughter’s bedroom, “Mom, come quickly!  Janie is real sick!”  When she entered the room Janie lay lifeless on her bed with no heartbeat!  My sister ran to the phone, called the doctor, and ran back.  She rechecked the child and still found no heartbeat!  Hysterically she placed her hand on the youngster’s chest and cried out, “Not now God, please not now!”

Suddenly my sister felt a heavy thump hit the top of her hand as it lay on the child, and she took a deep gasping breath as her heart began to beat once again!  Janice sat upright and immediately tried to get down off the bed.  My sister attempted to quiet her and get her to lay back down, but Janie refused.  She pushed her mother’s hand aside, climbed down, knelt on the floor and began to pray, “Hail Mary full of grace….”  My niece was fine all the rest of the day.

(Her big sister Christine just added, “At this point in her life Auntie, this was miraculous as she was almost incapable of saying a prayer because of previous brain damage done to her from so many mini heart attacks.)

Two weeks later, while at Backus Hospital in Norwich, Conn., immediately after being examined by a top heart specialist, she had her final heart attack at the hospital in the presence of the best medical facilities and people available.  As she headed out of the hospital Janice Lynn had another attack and they rushed her back in, and for 45 minutes attempted unsuccessfully to revive her.

My sister believed the Lord heard her cry out that day, two weeks before!  She didn’t understand what hit the back of her hand, but knew if her daughter had died at home, she never would have been able to handle the guilt!  She also believed God knew better than her that no matter what she did, He was still going to take this sweet child.  She admitted before she passed away that Janice Lynn was the only one of her six children she no longer worried about.

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

P.S.  I verified this story before I blogged it, with my niece Christine.  She helped me with the medical details and added this little note, “Aunt Claire, the evening before Janice was examined and passed away at Backus Hospital, she awoke in the night, looked up at the ceiling and said, “OH, I’M GOING WITH YOU!  OK!” and then went back to sleep.  The very next day she went to be with the Lord!”

Ecc.3:1+2,  “To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven; a time to be born and a time to die”  (NKJV)



Dear Readers,

This story is a re-blog that is dear to my heart as my granddaughter is graduating from MSU this coming May…


In October of 1996 Melanie was born profoundly deaf.  When she was birthed, hearing loss was not yet being tested on newborns like it is today.  For the first year of her life we all thought she was just a stubborn child!  The family doctors didn’t pick up on it either.  But, little things she did like constantly touching her lips to vibrating and musical toys, made her parents wonder.

Finally, a specialist at UMASS Hospital confirmed their worst fears.  As her mother sat teary-eyed, the doctor told her, “Did you know, Miss America sat in that very chair you are sitting in now?  Did you also know that she is deaf?  You are going to be amazed as to what your daughter will accomplish in life!”

I believe this next comment is an example of the magnificent ways the Lord heals!  When Mel was only 3 1/2 years old, my daughter and I took her to a beautiful place in Barre, Mass. where a humble man named John Hardy had built a giant blacktop crucifix out of asphalt.  All over the top of it his family painted in white, the ten commandments!  Annually, thousands of people go there to visit this amazing shrine to pray, get married, and more, and John welcomed every one of them!

While my daughter and I were on one of those visits praying with Mr. Hardy, little Melly had a vision!  She ran to her mother and pointed to the wide open fields and asked, “Who is that man, mommy?”  My daughter looked around at the massive acres of fields before us, but there was no one there!  She questioned little Mel, “What man honey?”  Mel pointed to the openness again and repeated, “You know mommy, that man in the white dress, over there!”  Both her mother and I scoured the countryside looking for this person, but the only people visible on the vast acreage  were John, Melly, Me and my daughter!  For a couple days her mother and I wondered if Melanie had experienced something spiritual.

Later that week Mel had another routine checkup on her ears.  After it was over her mother called me and excitedly gave me the good news, “Mom, you are not going to believe this!  Her test results were better than the last evaluation!  She actually improved a little!”  We were thrilled because previously we had been told that her type of hearing loss could easily be totally gone with just a slight bump on her head!  Both of us began to wonder if the vision had something to do with this improvement.  The way she had described the man in the white dress made us assume she had seen something angelic!  Mr. Hardy told us that many strange events happened on his land since he built this shrine to Jesus!

Almost 20 years have passed since that event took place.  Melanie still wears hearing aids and will turn 23 years old this October.  She is proud of her deaf culture and consistently says, ” It is the way God made me, Nana!”

Next month she is graduating with a degree in “Digital Film Production” and did part of her internship at Fox News in Springfield, Mo. and has been nominated  Cum Laude !

The Lord heals all of us in many different ways.  The one scripture that fills my mind the most when I pray for healings is always the same,  “Be still and know that I AM GOD!”  (Ps46:10)

Love in Christ,     Claire  xoxo

P.S.  Just a note, John Hardy built this memorial because as an adult,  the Lord healed him of a deaf ear that he lost hearing in from a childhood accident.  If you are interested in more information, look him up on the internet under, “John Hardy, Barre, Mass”  John is now with Jesus!!



Retirement To The Show Me State

Dear Readers,

After retiring, we decided to take a motor home trip around the country praying for the Lord to show us a perfect retirement area, and this is where we ended up…

RETIREMENT TO THE SHOW ME STATE,   Journal Entry-  August, 2006

The morning sky is purple, and then it suddenly turns to yellow!  Our new home of seven days in Halfway (Vantown section) Missouri faces the eastern sky to beautiful sunrises.  Early to bed and early to rise seniors that we are, this incredible sight appears to us as we sip our morning coffee!  Twenty five acres of alfalfa lay across our front yard, skirted by a tree line of hardwoods and pines.  It is like a painted masterpiece instead of real life!  I still wonder why the Lord has brought us here.

Nothing short of a miracle turned our lives around in just a few months!  Still unpacking, this is the only journal notebook I could locate.  It is full of stories from the beginning of our search, mostly about the possibility of moving to Missouri, and here we are!

I thought New Braintree, Massachusetts was rural!  Little did I realize just what the word “RURAL” really meant!  Mooing cows across the field, have opened my eyes to real farm country.  “Why Lord?” I continue to ask, “Why have you brought us 1400 miles from everything we know?”

The sale of the house in New Braintree, Mass. continues to go well, and is scheduled to close in a few days, unlike here in the mid west, where closings happen immediately and with little or no regulations.  We were regulated to death on everything in the New England area, which cost us a fortune in fees!

Now, we sit in wonderment on our front porch and loom over the alfalfa field that spreads out like a giant green blanket before us.  We observe hummingbirds, locusts, coy dogs, turkeys, gophers, lizards, rabbits, raccoons, armadillos and more, living in the field.  No deer yet, but C.J. can’t wait for them to appear!  Another nice quality we have noticed, we almost never see or feel the sting of a mosquito!  Must be the dry area we live in!

It’s a different climate than we are used to.  More like two seasons than four.  Summer seems to roll right into winter very quickly and vice versa.  I thought I heard the Lord whisper to me, “The move is spiritual and economic!”


Hard to believe, but here it is March of 2019, going on almost 13 years since relocating here, and we are still in the same spot the Lord brought us to!  It has proven to be a great retirement area with a strong Christian base, stable economy, steady taxes, house prices, food prices, and employment!  The weather is a little scary in the spring, but the winters are mild.  Summers are hot, unlike New England, so air conditioning is a must!

It is obvious that the Lord moved us here as an answer to our prayers, and brought along some of our extended family to make us more comfortable!  In the bible He says to “pray unceasingly” about everything.  C.J. and I are now 70 and 75 years old, so I guess going to senior activities, volunteering, and waiting on the Lord every day we have left, is a real gift from God!

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

Titus 2:13,  “While we wait for the blessed hope, the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ”  (NIV)



It’s Time For Women To Step Up

Dear Readers,

I am appalled at what is happening in some states in our country regarding infanticide!  I debated abortion over 43 years ago shortly after legalization  (Read my blog- Abortion Yes or No).  As I am turning 75 years old this February, the Lord has laid this blog heavily on my heart…


With all the contraceptives available to women today, why are there still so many abortions here in America?  It is time for women to step up!  We all know that sex is not going to change!  We all know that rapists and abusers are every where!  We all know that reproduction is part of life.

Abortion is murder, plain and simple, whether the child is one month or nine months into growth!  Millions of babies all over the USA have been created by God (Hebrews 2:13) and are being ripped from their mother’s womb.  So many couples want desperately to adopt these children because they can’t have a child naturally, or because they want to save a life!

If we are not controlled by God, then we are controlled by satan (Romans 6:6+7).  There is nothing in the middle!  Yes, God forgives our sins if we ask Him, and “Thou shalt not kill” is included in the ten commandments.  Abortion is killing!

Here’s a question for you!  Why doesn’t our health insurance or our government give out free contraception?  Think of how many women that would stop from having to make this decision!  In many places abortions are free, why not contraception?

Forty three years ago I had a decision to make, to keep or abort an unexpected third pregnancy!  Abortion had just become legal in America, with tremendous restrictions, but legal!  Thank God, I prayed about this decision and listened to what the Lord told me.  He also opened my eyes with a couple of powerful signs sent to me the very day I called my doctor.

Today, 61 million dead babies later, my own sweet third child has her Master’s Degree in Social Work and specializes in Geriatrics, assisting the elderly with all their end of life decisions, and she also trains other social workers all across the country!  I could not be more proud of all her achievements, or of any of my children’s achievements for that matter.

God’s timing is always perfect and He decided the time for her to enter the world was October of 1976, and that was that!  God doesn’t make mistakes, only we do, and we make lots of them!

Please don’t make this mistake if you are carrying a child!  Save a life, get your tubes tied, use contraceptives, practice abstinence, consider adoption, but don’t let abortion be your solution, please!

As a volunteer at our local hospital, I see more than half a dozen newborns, every time I work!  I pray for each and every one of them to have parents that will love them, care for them, and teach them about Jesus!

Turn to Jesus, He will help you make the right decision!

Love in Christ,  Claire  xoxo

Psalms 127:3,  “Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb is a reward.”  (NKJV)

Exodus 20:13,  “Thou shalt not kill”  (NIV)


Experiencing New Life

Dear Readers,

As I approach 10 years of volunteering at our local hospital, my blogs hopefully reflect my love for what I do…

EXPERIENCING NEW LIFE,  Journal Entry,  June, 2016

Arriving at the birthing center, which is a locked facility at our hospital, I picked up the phone to gain entrance but no one answered.  I kept trying and finally was buzzed in.  When I arrived at the nurses station it was empty.  Not one person was available to answer my questions.  Only one woman was present, her head and hands folded in prayer, leaning against a birthing room door.  The silence was deafening!

Suddenly a scream from inside that birthing room caused the visitor to panic.  I quickly realized why there wasn’t a single nurse or doctor visible.  A second scream made me realize I had entered the department at a crucial moment during  a mother’s hard labor.

The fretting person was a panicky family member, so I dropped my magazine cart, rushed over to her and said, “Quick, let’s pray!”  She grabbed my hands and bowed her head, “Lord, please help this young mother to get through all this pain as quickly as possible.  Cover her with your blood and surround her with angels and make her laboring pass quickly, in Jesus name, amen!”  She thanked me for the prayers as we both heard a final scream, then a baby’s cry, and that was it, a new life was born!  That quickly!

I was told by her family, “Only 20 minutes of hard labor and a large baby boy came into the world!”

God is so good!  In all my years of volunteer work, I have never experienced being this close to a birth!  It was priceless to be able to pray a few quick words with a frightened family member.

I continued my rounds and went from room to room on my own, knocking on doors to ask about my books and magazines.  An exhausted nurse soon came out of the busy birthing room and started to tell me which rooms I could visit.  “Don’t worry, I took care of all of them already!” and smiled at her.

As I left the center I was overjoyed to have been so close for this special event.  Walking the long halls of the hospital, I heard my favorite baby song over the speaker system announcing the birth of our newborn boy.  Each time an infant enters the world I am thankful!  I happily grinned and thought, “I was there for this one! Thank you Father, thank you soooooo much for this child entering the world on my watch!  Please Lord, give the children loving, caring parents that will raise them to know your Son Jesus, amen!”

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

John 3:6,  “Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit”   (NIV)



Dear Readers,

I know miracles happen every day but I still feel the need to write about mine, maybe just because people should hear them.   Today was a scary time and a wonderful time as well.  Today was a miracle day…

A FLASH OF YELLOW,   Journal Entry,  March, 1991

My usual routine of driving school bus began at 7 A.M..  With the blue sky and warm March sun rising in the east, I said my daily prayer as I boarded, “Lord, please put angels on my wheels and around my bus!  Watch over all my children, in Jesus’s name, amen.”

A ton of responsibility comes with being a school bus driver!  With a cargo of 120 precious babies (four to a seat), they depend on a cautious pick up and delivery each day.  Parents even relax and sit back for a second cup of coffee at the sight of my closing bi-fold doors.


Today on my afternoon route, a driver’s worst nightmare became my reality!  All was going well as I picked up my kids after school.  I headed up Ramshorn Road making my usual stops.  Approaching an apartment building where several children usually get off, I stopped  busy highway traffic in both directions, but only two students exited.  Not unusual, as often times parents pick children up early.  Upon opening my door, a shout came from the rear of my bus, “Emily was supposed to get off!”  A kindergartner came running up the aisle from the back.  I reopened the door, she exited and crossed the highway and ran into her house.  Once again, I tried to close my doors to free up the impatient traffic when yet another shout came from the rear of my vehicle, “My little sister wasn’t supposed to get off here today!” her brother remembered, “I forgot she is supposed to go to my uncle’s house with me!  I don’t think my mom is home!”

Getting restless the traffic began to blow their horns and started inching their way forward.  I was forced to make a split second decision, “OK, you go get her and I will wait for both of you!”  Her big brother exited quickly and crossed the very busy street.

My stop lights and sign still on for longer than normal, traffic piling up, and 40-50 restless children left to deliver, helped me to make another decision to close my doors and let the traffic pass, move forward a little, and reopen my doors for the returning children.

The cars passed and the boy returned to the bus and mumbled at me in passing, “Emily is OK!” and he proceeded to run to the back of the bus again.  I glanced over at their house and figured her brother had checked and mom was home and I could finally be on my way.  I closed my door, released my hand brake, checked all my mirrors again, put my bus into drive, and pushed the gas peddle!

Most people aren’t aware that school buses have mirrors that reveal a sweeping view of only three sides of their bus!  Most people also aren’t aware of how tiny a kindergartner’s body is to this monstrous 26,000 pound vehicle!  No matter how much we drill the children about safety, a frightened five-year-old does not think!  He or she only panics!

As I hit the accelerator, a flash of yellow sped past only one mirror, then disappeared from view!  I hit my brakes with all the might in my entire body and fear rushed through me like a lightning bolt!  I threw open my doors and prayed, “Please God, please!”

As God is my judge, I sit here writing this in tears and I admit that no way on earth should I have missed hitting that 50 pound flash of yellow!  I know the distance between the visual view of my mirrors and the tiny bodies that disappear in front of my massive vehicle.

Eternity passed!  Emily, whom I thought was safely in her home with mom, appeared in my door in her little yellow jacket, frightened, crying, and panic stricken that she would be left behind alone!  She had rushed out of the house because mom was not home as I assumed by her brother’s comment in passing.

I grabbed her, held her, comforted her, and cried with her all at the same time!  I honestly believed she went under my front wheels!  Neither of us could stop trembling!  After catching my breath and seating little Emily, I found a quiet spot to pull over and again drilled the little ones on safety rules.

After dropping off my last child securely to his home, about a half mile down that road, I stopped and broke down into deep uncontrollable sobbing.  It felt like the Holy Spirit was sitting in my bus with me, comforting me with His presence.  Through tearful eyes and catching my breath, I glanced around at the countryside and saw a distant pond covered with Canadian geese.  With a sigh of relief I prayed again, “Thank You Lord, thank You, thank You, thank You!”

There are four guardian angels on my wheels and only the good Lord knows how many surround my bus!  To this day, I never drive anywhere without covering my vehicle with angels!

Love in Christ,   Claire  xoxo

Luke 4:10,  “He shall give his angels charge over you, to keep you”  (NKJV)

P.S.  Today, thank God, the school buses are equipped with a long metal arm that stretches out in front of the bus when they stop, forcing the children to go around it, enabling the drivers visibility on all four sides